I talk a lot about food and pretty things in this space. Food and fashion bring people joy and inspiration and both are easy and fun for all. But what about the things in life that are difficult but still bring joy and are rewarding? Not everyone is a running/cardio fan but I love to run. It didn’t always used to be this way. When I started playing Lacrosse in high school I dreaded our long road runs. Over time I suppose I came to understand and appreciate the meditative aspect of a long run. I still understand why people don’t connect with it, it hurts and it takes a lot of will power. As a runner you have to tell yourself to keep going, to keep pushing. You eventually train yourself to work through the cramps, breathlessness, and pains. It is an act that takes self discipline and perseverance. As a runner my rewards and achievements are all my own and come only from myself. With each run I feel stronger and more confident and after each run I am happy and energized. When I am grumpy Eloy orders me to go run for an instant attitude adjustment. When I am anxious or scared I can count on a good run to set my head straight and get me back on track. Running keeps me healthy mentally and physically. It has been quite some time since I replaced my runners so when I found a new pair that I liked on sale I went for them. Looking at my old Neon Frees I thought about all the miles and life challenges they have carried me through. I realized how important running is to me and how much it has changed me for the better. In a few weeks time all of us will be making resolutions for the new year. Some of us will resolve to save more money, others to be more thoughtful or grateful, and many will make some type of resolution involving fitness or diet. Many resolutions are difficult to keep and most will be forgotten before the first week of the year is through, so here is my suggestion: be selfish and resolve to run. If you can’t run, walk. Start small and work your way up. Resolve to push yourself. Resolve that when you are feeling angry or down to slip on your shoes and hit the road. Resolve to become more disciplined with each step. As the popular saying goes: you only live once. You only have one shot to make yourself a better person and leave a positive impression on this earth. Start on the inside. It is going to hurt, and you are going to want to quit, but you have to remember that the pain is what creates the change.
As much as you may love listening to Taylor Swift ‘Shake it off’ hourly let’s face it, the radio and pop music can leave a bit to be desired. I love being fed audibly just as much as visually so here’s a brand new flavor for your ear. I may have mentioned my dear friend Danny aka Dj Metric once or twice here, and if you know me far more than that. I am blessed to be surrounded by creative and talented friends like Mr. Metty, and even more blessed that his newest effort is the music blog TASTEMADE.la This music snob driven blog is sure to keep your ear on to what’s new and next. Listen to hand picked singles from up and coming artists or masterful mixes and find out what’s cool before it’s popular. Newness is inspiring and motivating, so shake off your Swift addiction and open your ears to TASTEMADE.la Happy listening! http://tastemade.la/tastemade-la-mix-dj-metric/
I am not sure why but the last few months I have been extremely introspective. In my few quiet moments I catch myself analyzing, evaluating, and reevaluating where I am and what I am doing right now. I am questioning everything. Another year is almost in the books. In retrospect this has been the busiest, most change filled year to date. I started a new job, I turned thirty, Eloy and I got married, we travelled to Thailand, and we decided it is our last year in our loft. We have attended too many weddings, baptisms, and birthdays to count. We have celebrated births, and lamented deaths. This year has gone by in the blink of an eye and yet felt like a lifetime. Perhaps I am feeling a bit overwhelmed and it is causing me to withdraw and turn inward. At times I feel burnt out creatively, and emotionally. I have wanted to write about it but I could never seem to come to a point that I could organize my thoughts enough that they made sense or had meaning, let alone be something worth reading. I do feel a bit uncertain at the moment, but I realize that it is because the future is uncertain and I am trying to determine my next moves. The last couple years have been so straight forward: plan a wedding, and get married. When you are planning a wedding there is a clear deadline and a definite goal, when you are looking at planning the next steps in your life things are much more nebulous and the answers to all the questions are illusive. What does it really mean to be successful? What is really going to bring happiness? Do I take a risk or play it safe? Am I really passionate about what I am doing? Does what I am doing really matter? If you are or know an artist that last question is the ONE question that continually haunts us. My final assessment is that though I am currently drained and uncomfortable it is good. I am testing and pushing myself. I am taking inventory of my life and giving myself a performance review. It is difficult and unpleasant but I will be happier and achieve more because of it. If I never questioned the path that I choose to be on how could I know if I am heading in the right direction? How could I become a better person if I never judge myself? I am wrestling with myself at the moment, but I am certain that I will win and it will all be for the better.